I have no title for my blog today! Not good.

I cant understand why so many people keep telling me I'm beautiful. I'm not .... Although I am losing weight, yay. I'm on my way to being that size smaller for Download Festival in June. Fingers crossed I will be successful in getting to a nice size with beautiful curves and a pretty smile. I might be beautiful one day just I'm not yet.

I have been sticking to clothes that are comfortable of late. Corsets for rehearsal and gorgeous shoes! Beautiful wonderful Iron Fist shoes that I intend on wearing to perform in.

the new and improved me!



New stuff on Monday

Here, is my outfit from monday. Its mostly new. I had a splurge last week on payday, £50 purely on myself. I loved it.

Below you can see I have had my hair cut, I dyed it red and I had my lip pierced. I have taken to wearing flowers in my hair as it is spring and they look cute and girly.

This here is a guy I saw last night and then again this morning. I love his coat and felt compelled to go over and stroke it. If I see him again and he doesn't think I'm a total fruitloop I may go do it again! Woo!!

Tuesday afternoon in the office

Well I've been a little absent over the last week or so. I've been busy partying and enjoying the single life.

This weekend was one of my best this year. Started by going out and doing a little shopping on Thursday after work. Bought some new clothes and what not. Went out on Friday night with the girls. On Saturday though, I went to learn how to be a drag king. Spent the day dressed as a man with breasts bound and everything. I had my lip pierced and had a go at a fake tan. I then spent Sunday doing my hair, its been cut and coloured and looks rather nice if I do say so.

Last night I went to Efes in Manchester for an all you can eat buffet and a bit of entertainment. I had a lot of fun if I'm honest.

Bringing me swiftly to today.

I dubbed today "Wear your favourite outfit day". So thats what I have done. Although I've taken to wearing flowers in my hair, I do find my fave outfit something a bit more 'hard edge'. Will put piccies up for yesterdays outfit.

Too many tears

Well, it would seem that my relationship is drawing to a close. I was off work yesterday due to doctors appointments.

I had spent most of last week arguing with my partner, and all of Monday not speaking. We talked yesterday, spent ages on the phone talking about our relationship. We came to the conclusion that we have nothing in common anymore, we are always fighting and we never do anything together. It was decided that we would take a couple of days to think about things and see where we're both at by Friday. I cant see us staying together but I suppose it may happen. I cried while I was on the phone, I cried for about 40 minutes. Letting the tears fall down my face. I spent the night at my friends again.

I've shed far too many tears over that man. He's been a part of my life for so long that being without him, even the thought of being without him leaves me feeling like half a person. I feel empty and alone. Thats not to say I am alone. I have a constant stream of people telling me "Being single is great!", "Its not so bad" .... The thing is, what if it is so bad? What if I end up going my whole life without ever managing to keep a relationship together? What if I keep failing at love, what if it gives up on me .... Again??

See these are the questions that I ask myself. I dont know anymore if its because I'm scared of being alone forever that I want to be with him. That I feel compelled to make him stay with me, even when its clear we aren't happy. We haven't been happy in a long time, we're miserable him and I. I love him and at the same time I hate him so much for making me this - half woman. This thing that is only half the person I used to be.

Maybe it is time to say its finally over .... Just maybe.

Matte Nail Polish

I forgot to mention I have now got a lovely matte nail polish!

Its a deep blue that appears purple in the bottle. Bought from Avon for the bargain price of £3, I decided to give it a shot last night. I prepped my nails, getting the shape just right and applying a base coat. The colour went on a little uneven on the first nail, but after that it was smooth, even and perfect.

Heres a piccie of my efforts. I did smudge onto the skin just a little, but it was a little dark in my room when I started.

I'm so in love with this polish at the minute, shame it chipped away while I was in the bath ... No matter, I'll do it again and again and again :D

Finally over the weekend

Its Monday morning and I'm finally over my hangover! Only taken 3 days but I'm over it at long last.

The weekend proved to be one of interest, I saw Katie Price on Lets Dance for Comic Relief dressed as a man dressed as a woman ... Thats right, dancing "I've got to break free". It was amazing!!

I've found out that I can't eat anything that I like anymore. Caffeine makes me dizzy and lightheaded, chocolate hurts my teeth and foods with a high fat content gives me terrible belly ache. Its a wonderful life I tell you.

The good news is that my new camera takes brilliant pictures. I was using it on Friday and, after I figured out how to use it properly, it was fabulous!

Right, off to do some work now.

Saturday Afternoon and recovering

Its Saturday afternoon .... Last night well (eventually). I was so excited all day about going out, I spent ages getting ready and dressed up to be told when I arrived that I didn't look old enough! I'm 22!!!

However, I eventually managed to get in. Went home to retrieve my ID, quickly got changed and returned to the bar where my friends were waiting.

Just a couple of pictures from last night

Its Friday!

Yes its Friday!!! I love Fridays's.

Tonight I'm going out with my bestest girlfriend for a few drinks. I haven't posted for a few days I know, I've been a bit absent, as I have been staying with my mate. There until Sunday and she doesn't have the internet.

Tonight I will be dressed expressly in an 80's fashion complete with big hair! I will take pictures and post tomorrow.

In the meantime though .... Love Friday, its the only day that signifies the beginning and the end of something - the beginning of the weekend and the end of the week!! Woo!!

Back and feeling good!

Well I'm back to my good old self again today! My same old fashionista self woo!

So heres whats gone on today!

I wanted to wear something today that was a little edgy and a bit punky. Starting with the hair, I worked it into a faux hawk (sadly on my way to work the hair fell so now its more a 'rock quiff'). A loose fitted tank top with harem pants and heeled military boots make up my outfit, and a blazer with it.

A truly rubbish start to the week

Yesterday was Valentines as most of you will know. For me it began in the worst possible way! I will start by saying that I love my cats - they are my little friends who are affectionate and loving. However, on Sunday night, they decided to use my bath as a toilet. Now because I was running late, I didn't have time to clean it up in order to have my shower. I had 10 minutes to get ready .... Faced with this dilemma, I threw on the first thing that came to hand out my wardrobe and ran downstairs to grab my shoes. They were nowhere to be found! So I ended up looking my least attractive yesterday in clothes that didn't fit quite right.

Considering that it was valentines and that I had no money, I decided to make my partner a card. The second I finished constructing it he tells me he doesn't have any money and that I shouldn't come to see him. Well I cried. I was so upset that on the most romantic day of the year he doesn't want to see me.

This morning I told him that we shouldn't see each other this week and that I didn't want to speak to him just now either. This way if he calls me then its because he wants to, not because he feels he has to. If he does something nice its truly because he wants to do nice things not because he feels like he should. I dont think he will want to see or speak to me or do anything nice, if he does I'll eat my hat.

Something of a let down.

Well, I had hoped that last night I would have been able to spend a nice evening in with my partner. Sadly I was not to be so lucky. I ended up being awake until 3am and then woke this morning at about 9:30. Not so great if I may say so.

The good news is that the boots went back last night and I managed to get a credit note for the store. Now I have an awesome new bag and some fun new trousers. Heavens only knows what I will wear them with but I'm sure I'll find something.

For the minute I should go. He will be awake soon and is going to want his computer back.

Its Friday and we know what that means!

Its Friday! That means I get to wear what I like today. It means that getting ready takes even longer as I try desperately to find the clothes that fit and are neat and clean. Today I gave up looking for neat and settled in stead for clean at least.

 Today I went chose to wear something that emulates the girl I was 5 years ago. When I wore baggy jeans and loose fitting shirts with band logos on them.

 As you can see, today I am in bootcut jeans and an old Iron Maiden shirt (that has a hole in the back). I threw on a cardi over the top because its a little nippy in our office sometimes and I like to be warm ... Plus it hides the hole in my shirt.

I love this shirt. I bought it for 50p years ago on a market and have had it since.

Whilst I dont have a picture of them, I also wore my fave converse today. Fearne Cotton design leopard print cons with red laces. Of the 4 pairs I own, they are the ones I love the most and wear the least because I dont want them to die as fast as my regular ones did.

Its so close to Friday

This morning I got out of bed and my initial thought was "ooh its lovely and toasty in here". After this though, I was faced with the dilemma of geting dressed.

This is what I came up with. 

 Well, today I decided on wearing some small heels rather than flat shoes or ankle boots.

 Trousers today, I've had dresses on for 2 days with flat shoes and I felt a much needed break was required from tights and leggings. So today I have my most faithful pair of high waisted black trousers, a nice clean white shirt and a blue waterfall cardigan. Its been rather cold the last couple of days so the cardi was necessary.

As it is probably quite clear now, this is my coat for the season. My mac! I bought this coat for £1 in a local charity shop. Now I dig it out in spring as its perfect for the season. This year I've taken to leaving the top button open and wearing a broad black belt over the top.

I think this weekend I'm going to photograph things that I think look good. I dont know think many people will let me take pictures of them though. Oh well, I'm sure I can get some interesting photo's somewhere!

An awful lunch

Well I've just had the most awful soup for my dinner, carrot and coriander. Blergh never again. Although in saying that, I did have a nice yogurt and a low fat snack with it. A healthy lunch even if it was awful lol. I must say though, I do like a nice soup for my lunch.

 So, here is todays lunch ^

And here is todays outfit. A blue paisley dress with a denim waistcoat. I have black boots on that have stud chains around the ankles and thick black tights.

Aside from the fiasco with lunch, today has been an alright day. I wasn't pestered by my cats too much this morning which was nice, and I've been able to speak with my partner a little as well.

blog from my phone

Well since my phone is positively brilliant and can do everything, it would seem that it also allows me to blog from it!

Today is a sad day for me. The boots I bought last week, are to go back to the shop. The heel  has started to come apart from the shoe. have only worn them twice almost cried! fortunately I should be able to return them for a full refund. I will get a picture before I take them back.

Todays outfit

This is me!!! And my new phone there in my hand. I have a couple more pix below

So here is todays outfit, I love this dress! I feel it looks nice just as it is or with jeans on for a more laid back look.

A long hard day

Today has been a long day. I have been up since about 7am .... I got my new phone! Wooo its lovely having a camera and a new phone.

Today I had the day off work, a sad day for my partner as he was at his granddads funeral.

I don't have much to blog about today, not much of anything today.

Sunday night and painting my nails

Well its Sunday night. The love of my life has just left to go home for the night.

I went to stay with him last night, we had a big pizza for tea and I got to drink caffeine free diet coke (I'm off caffeine for a while). Any way, my mum decided to invite him over to ours for stew and dumplings ... yum yum. So, we had an early-ish night, bed about midnight/one am, and woke up bright and early. I made the decision to go home before he came round so I could get the place cleaned up a little.

We had a lovely dinner now he's gone home :'-(  ..... Good part about him having gone home is that I have now finished cleaning and am halfway through painting my nails. Black Onyx OPI polish, its my fave!!

Oh its soo nearly Monday! Cant wait to get my new phone!!! BB Torch hehe cant wait.

Saturday Morning

Its Saturday morning and I have my computer back after lending it to my partner for over a week. I cant say as that I'm overly impressed because he has installed a bunch of stuff I don't need and then not removed it. Oh well, guess that its a good job I know how to do it myself.

Today will be all about music and cleaning. I have desperately got to get some new music on my ipod, all mine is starting to bore me a little, and I also have to desperately clean my room. It saddens me that I have nothing better to do today :'-(

Today I don't think I'll bother getting dressed, I have no real need to as I'm going to be cleaning so I need to be comfortable. Right off to go do my downloading

New Phone!!!

Well, today is shaping up to be as dreary as the weather led me to believe. Only one thing has made this day better so far .... I'm getting a new phone! I have just ordered myself a blackberry torch. I can't wait. It should be here next Monday, setting me up with a whole new contract .... Shame that I'd just bought a lovely new cover for it. Oh well, the point is that in just a few days I'll have a brand spanking shining new phone. With extended battery life, gorgeous clean screen free of scratches woohoo, this fact is keeping me going til Monday evening.

Today, I am giving my new boots their second outing. Today with my super skinny skinny jeans, a black tank top and a black cardigan. I have put a skinny belt over the cardigan just to draw attention to my waist.

Soo looking forward to getting my new phone

Its Friiidddaayyy!!!

Yes it is indeed Friday! Sadly, the weather today does not share my enthusiasm as to the fact that tonight will be the official start to the weekend. Ah well, whats a girl to do I suppose? I write today while eating a grape and apple pack from Tesco, which I picked up whilst on my way to work.

Today I have seen possibly the greatest fashion faux pas of the year so far! A man who gets on my bus, I see him daily. Normally he wears smart trousers, a shirt and a jacket. Pretty much as you would expect from a man on his way to work. He is slim and a little on the short side, so imagine my surprise, when today I saw him wearing a rather large fur hat! Its in the style of a trucker hat (with the hanging down sides) but completely fur! Well, I wanted to laugh, and take pictures but I had no camera ... I did laugh though!! Dont get me wrong I dont always get it right, but I wouldn't be caught dead in one of those hats!

This morning I have also thought about Rihanna (of course I speak of the singer). I love her, I love her songs and I think she is just gorgeous. Anyway, I was listening to her latest album this morning and thought to myself, just how different her music is now to when she first hit the music scene. Her voice, her lyrics, everything seems to have grown with her as she has developed from the girl we saw just a few a years ago to the superstar we see today.

Myself, I woke this morning trying to think of a way to make my morning go faster. Currently, I wake up at 5:50, have a shower, dry and style my hair, get dressed, collect my things and head out for the bus. This in total takes me 45 minutes. So I have been pondering ways to make things go faster. My initial thought was to arrange my clothes and my room in such a way that things are easier to get to, and second to pick out my clothes the night before and lay them out along with my makeup and hair things ready to go in the morning. Sadly I dont ever seem to have the time to do any of this so it seems it will get put on a back burner for the time being.

Now I guess I should focus on what the day has in store for me, and wonder what I shall be doing this weekend (if anything at all).

New Look for the page

Well, as you can see I have a new look on the page now. I hope to be getting more and more on here filling it with my observations on the world around me, fashion, life, love and people.

I love to watch people going about their daily business. I like to try and think of where they may be going, who they are with, their relationships. Everything, my mind wanders.

What I wore today

Last night I bought the most amazing ankle booties. They are black wedges but have little studs on the wedge part! Wahaay!! A pair of shoes that fits perfectly to my personality and the style I wish to accomplish.

I see girls everyday wearing the most gorgeous clothes and try to take a lot of inspiration from them. A young girl I see quite often, wears the nicest hooded cape cardigan, I'm on the verge of asking her where she got it so I can go buy one too. Another girl I see wears vintage clothes and has gorgeous jet black betty paige style hair.

As much as I wish I could look like these girls the truth is, that I dont. I am not a petite size 10, nor do I have the right shape to pull off a hooded cape. So I must come up with things that I can wear to look individual and more like myself.

Sooo ... The boots today are on with leggings. I was trying to create a block so that the boots and my leggings would blend into one another. And I have put a floral tunic with it.

I really need ideas for tomorrow. I get to wear Jeans on a Friday so I think it will be a nice pair of skinny jeans to wear with them. Although thus far I am not sure.

Decisions decisions .......

Day 5

Well, the challenge didn't get further than Tuesday due to a number of unforseen events. However I have decided that I am going to start blogging just in general. Posting about my life and more to the point about my lovely and strange as it may be fashion sense. Still waiting on that camera but when it gets here be sure I will make up for lost time with getting pictures of every day fashion I see around and about the streets of manchester and the things that I wear on a day to day basis.

Today, I saw a girl wearing a gorgeous hooded cape cardigan. I will be attempting to hunt one down as soon as I get paid.

As for me, today I hadn't much choice in what to wear. I packed up yesterday as I went to stay with my other half, and brought the wrong trousers with me (eek!). The ones I brought were a pair of long flare's when what I had meant to grab was my fave pair of super skinny skinnies. Which meant that I had to wear the far too long flared jeans with my uggs, as you can imagine tucked in flare to uggs not a great look but I persevere. Along with the jeans dilemma, I also had to be concerned of the fact that I had no cardigan, or jumper for the day .... What was I going to do aside from panic?! Well I used my initiative, of course! I took the boyfriend shirt that I had brought for the day and rolled down the sleeves, then I cardi-knapped my boyfriends cardigan and put that over the top of the shirt leaving the bottom of the shirt sticking out over my jeans. Upon arriving to work I removed my jeans from my boots and went along with my day as planned. I have no make up on but a clean face so all is OK.

Day 4

Today is so far better than yesterday. I will be spending the night with my lovely other half and I will be able to do my nails as well! Which I am soo happy about because they desperately need doing, all my nails are chipped and broken. All I need to do is decide on a suitable colour for the next few weeks, think black is a good one to go with.

Well, the dress is still at home drying so I have been unable to wear it (yet again), and since I wont be home tonight I wont be able to wear it tomorrow either. Next week I will try this challenge again with a different item that I can actually wear with different things. Lord only knows what though.

Get to the point .... What about todays outfit I hear you cry?! Well today I was running late so I was unable to get myself ready properly. I have therefore wearing an outfit that doesn't really go together. A plain white vneck tshire with a black A line skirt covered in pink flowers. The outfit looks a lot better with a black button down cardigan but sadly I keep catching my chipped nails on the wool.

The Challenge - Day 3

Well, the challenge was going so well until I had to desperately wash my dress last night as some idiot not looking where he was going walked into me at the bus station and spilt his drink all over me soaking me to the skin! Unbelievable. I enjoyed a nice long bath last night with bubbles to calm myself down after the trauma with the drink.

Aah well, since my cats came to sit with me this morning I was kind of struggling for room to move and explore my whole wardrobe while I had a day off from the challenge. After deciding on the makeup of the day, 60's style with jet black liner and flawless skin, I chose to wear a tunic style dress. Its beige and covered in flowers, paired with jet black tights and flat over the knee boots.

The challenge will recommence tomorrow and last one extra day to compensate today and my inability to wear today.

I will say one thing though - Sheena of the original uniform challenge - I dont know how you did it, but I tip my hat to you! I've done 2 days so far and I'm finding it really hard to find things to wear with this dress!

The Challenge - Day 2

Well its day 2 and I hate that I have made myself do this, mainly because I like being able to choose what to wear every day. I know it must have been hard for Sheena who did this for a whole year, dear lord I dont know how she managed it! However, move on I shall.

Today I am wearing the dress as more of a skirt. I wear today - the dress, a black button down cardigan and black leggings. I think though, that the genius is what I have chosen to accessorise it with. A double row string of pearl style beads, and military boots (flat ones today) along with my favourite bomber jacket. I think I like most that the dress itself is a bit feminine, and adding the beads and the cardi would have left it looking a bit too girly for my taste. By adding on the bomber jacket and the boots it gives me the "punk/rock" edge that I love so much.

I'm looking forward to what I can try and come up with for tomorrow (and for my avon to get here!).

The Challenge ... Day 1

I recently read online about the Uniform challenge. About the lady who wore the same dress for a year, and came up with an idea for a challenge of my own.

I decided that this year, I would make more of an effort to wear what I own and not to spend so much on new clothes.

I am starting this week, with the challenge to wear one dress for 7 days in as many different ways as possible. I will post pictures of my outfits daily (as soon as I get a camera(just waiting on them coming back in stock from avon)).

The dress is short purple, floral body con style dress. Day 1 and I have combined it with a black pencil skirt over the top and a white shirt under neath it. I'm also wearing black tights and purple mary janes to tie it all off.

I'll keep posting my outfits for the rest of the week and see how it goes :D